Personal Reflections -
In Camps
MAGDA SOMMER - "Stations"
(Excerpts)
…Weeks, months passed and from September on the weather turned very cold. We
suffered more and more from cold, from hunger and thirst. We became thinner and
thinner. This time, towards the end of October 1944, with the advance of the Russian
army, evacuation of the camps began. The evacuation was accompanied by “selections.” (process by the Nazis to
choose who will live and will die by gassing. ) Klári and I got selected into a
labour transport with five hundred other people. We were taken to camp “A” next
to our camp “C”. At the morning Zählappel (roll-call) it turned out that we were
more than the required five hundred because some people, who originally were not
selected for work, escaped from their barracks to this labour-block. This labour
barrack was even better guarded by the SS than the others, because it was well
known we were off to a work camp and a lot of people tried to join our group.
Since we were rather helpless, the others managed to push Klári and me to the
far end of the line. Those at the end of a line had a fair chance to feel the
crack of a whip directly on their skin. We were lined up in rows of five and we
found ourselves at the end of the line. Because the group turned out to be more
than 500, the surplus was cut off and sent back to camp “C”, Klari and I
included. Suddenly, we realized that we were back among the sick and ailing
again. We knew, of course, what that meant - what awaited us. The dreaded black
trucks to cart the sick people away were expected shortly. It was still
daylight. Klári and I decided to escape from here. Between the two blocks there
was a latrine with thick, “juicy” excrement in it. We were counting the steps of
the armed SS guard to time ourselves. We had to wade through uncertain depths of
the latrine while the guard turned his back on us. I don’t quite remember how
long we had to count before he turned back. Later in the evening we made an
attempt and managed to get through without sinking into the faeces. It was only
knee high. So we got through but we smelled something awful -- the worst
imaginable. Obviously, we didn’t realize in what we had to wade through. In front of the barrack in camp “A” we found some sort of a puddle. One of us
dipped into that. The other one found half a bucket of water and tried to scrape
the thick, stinking mass off with that. Unfortunately, neither of us was very
successful. We smelled so foul that the others refused let us come into the
barrack. However, eventually, reluctantly, cursing and amidst abusing language,
they let us stay. So we managed to end up in camp “A” again. The train was about to leave with the labour transport the next morning. To
our chagrin, because of our, still foul odour, nobody would accept us in a row
of five. We were driven back from the gate again. We were back with the old and
the sick again that is, those bound for the gas chamber. I, too, almost gave up at that point. The black truck pulled up at three in
the afternoon. An Austrian Wermacht soldier and the Gräser (commander of the
camp) entered among the wailing, miserable people. He said that another fifty people are needed for the transport of 500. Klári
and I were luckily selected again from among the emaciated, the sick and old
people. But at the gate, we were turned back again. Back in camp “C”, we found
an empty hospital barrack from where the patients had been taken to be gassed.
In fact, the camp was almost totally empty. There were no guards around and
spotting a shower-stall we entered. We took off all those stinking clothes, had
a good shower at last and also washed our clothes clean. We put them on, all wet
but not smelling any more and returned to the “hospital” barrack where we fell
into a deep sleep, covered in blankets on the floor, warming one another. I
don’t know how long we slept but when I woke up I saw people marching outside. I
kept on nagging Klári that we should join the crowd. By then, Klári had given up
but I didn’t let her. I grabbed hold of her hand and was tugging her along to
come and fall in a line of five, together with three other people. We ran to
catch up with the marchers. It was at this point when fate has decided to save
us: in a little distance there were only three girls in a line who offered us a
helping hand so we could join them. One of them came from Marosvásárhely, her name was Sárika Mittler, and her
friend was Bella also from Marosvásárhely. Klári recalls that the third girl’s
name was Judit. After so many attempts, we finally were in a row of five and
managed to get through the gate and started out on a long, hard march from
Birkenau to Auschwitz. We slept on the cold concrete at night. However, in the
morning we were given clothes, clogs, underwear (!), caps (!) and a square tin
number hanging on a string. My number was 839. We became the happy owners of
warm socks, striped trousers and a jacket, underwear and a cap. We couldn’t
believe this earthly paradise. Our joy was completed by a fare of 250 grams
black bread together with some margarine. ...I wished to wipe my mind clean of the memory of what happened to me in
Birkenau. I never spoke about those horrors to anyone. An inner voice told me
that nobody could understand these experiences except only those who’d been
through them. There’s no use talking about them, even I wouldn’t believe them to
be true... Magda Summer, after the liberation returned to his town, Gyonkre, Hungary.
She matriculated from high school with excellent grades. In 1947-48 she enrolled
in the medical faculty of the University of Pecs. In 1949 she abandoned her
studies and got married instead. She has to daughters – who are doctors, and
four grandchildren. This is published here with the permission of the author and Dr. Katalin
Pecsi, editor of the Esztertaska blog where it also appeared in
Hungarian. English editing: Judy Weiszenberg Cohen. © Copyright Judy Cohen, 2007. |