Elaine Rosenberg Miller
In the midst of the forest, she stood.
In a dress one might have worn to a party.
Surrounded by others, hurrying, engaged in their own thoughts.
Beside her a woman, a tightly tied scarf encircling her skull, her expression guarded.
Some rise with their backs turned to the camera, others recline on the black and white grass.
Was it warm that June day?
Was there a sweet breeze?
Or was the air heavy with ash drifting down from the nearby smokestacks?
Heavy, greasy flakes?
There she was, her short blonde hair framing her sweet face.
Long after she had left Europe, my mother continued to dress our hair in the manner of the little girl standing in the woods of Birkenau, my sister and I.
Waiting for her turn to go into the gas chambers.
Her gaze direct.
Her hands grasping each other in an effort to calm, comfort, query.
Alone. At the age of four or five.
Was that her mother behind her? Before her?
Had her mother been chosen for slavery?
Was she with her grandmother? Neighbor? Stranger?
The week before she had been in her home.
Warm. Loved. Adored.
Now, she stood by herself.
Demanding, in her sweet, innocent manner.
Were we substitute children, my sister and I?
Had my mother, age nineteen, been on her train?
Seen her in the locked cattle car?
They came from the same region, at the same time.
Had my mother admired her, cared for her, wanted her?
Likely sewn by hand. Lovingly.
I will name her.
She must not go to her death unremembered.
She will live on in our daughters and the children they bear.
In her name.
from the March 2006 Edition of the Jewish Magazine
Elaine Rosenberg Miller is an attorney living in West Palm Beach, FL. Her essays, memoirs, poems and short stories have appeared in Brooklyn Voice, Jewish Magazine, Miranda Literary Magazine, Museum of Family History, The Forward and Women In Judaism: A Multidisciplinary Journal (University of Toronto).